Nerd of life

“I consider myself a nerd. Not just of books, or bikes, or koans. I’m a nerd of life. I’m passionate about the mystery — not to solve it, but to live inside it.

For years I asked myself: What is life? What am I looking for? Then one day, while climbing on my bike with my heart racing and legs burning, I laughed. Because it’s obvious, isn’t it?

Life doesn’t need to know what it is. It just is. Life doesn’t look in the mirror and say, ‘Who am I?’ It just lives.

So, if I too am life — and I am — what the heck am I doing asking questions?

We can summon all the thoughts in the world. Call on God, Jesus, the Buddha, and a thousand other names. We can build theories, hopes, fears…

But if we don’t see that all this — them, us, the sky, the breath, the road beneath our wheels — is the same thing…

If we don’t realize that Jesus didn’t just live two thousand years ago. That Buddha wasn’t just born in Lumbini. That God doesn’t live up in heaven.

Because all of this is here. Now. It’s this moment. It was never born, it never dies. It never appeared, it never disappeared.

And if we don’t see this… then we’re just blind people trying to lead other blind people. And you know how that goes: neither of them gets very far.

Maybe the real nerd, in the end, is the one who stops searching for answers… and starts living the question. With eyes wide open, heart awake. And maybe a cup of tea.

Or a beer. Because, well… that’s Buddha too.”